Since the day I finished my studies, I am quite convinced for sometime that I am not missing studying. I do miss my school, the bonding moments, the fastfoods, the internet cafe, the parks, the fishballs, the pond, the kubo, the sec-c... I miss a lot of them. But studying itself--nah. Assignments, projects, quizzes, long quizzes, reviewers, prelims, finals, thesis, defense... I am so HAPPY I'M SO DONE WITH THEM ALL!!!!!

...but then again, there are pros and cons for being a student and a taxpayer.

PROS for being a student: classmates, school, bonding moments, food, vacant schedules, early dismissal, suspended classes, holidays (ha! lalo na sa uste...) vacation at the province, weekends... when I was a student there were still moments that I get to do my hobbies. I still find myself comfortably snugged at my favorite corner sketching, reading, or writing...

CONS for being a student: exams, assignments, projects, thesis, defense, deadlines, grades, tres, sinko, review, reviewers, prelims, finals, paranoia, brain-drain, allowance-dependence information overload... at the end of a tiring day, you go home and study more, or do an assignment or project..always thinking for the next day's submission of whatsoever.

Now, how about being a taxpayer?

PROS for being a taxpayer: earning your own money, being of help to the family, you go home with nothing to think about.

CONS for being a taxpayer: overtime, routine work, brain-drain, deadlines, no summer vacation at the province, immunity from typhoon signals, no more time for hobbies...Since I started working, I lost time for sketching, reading and writing... usually I get to read at least 1 book in a month, 2 to 3 sketches in a week, and hours of writing in a week. Looking back now, it seemed I haven't done it for... years.

Hm. Now that everybody's in vacation... I feel envious. I know it's not good, but I've got to admit it. I feel that way. And I must deal with it. And since it's not so right and it's not so helpful, and not so encouraging, I submit it to the Lord... may I be content where ever I am right now, and be joyful in whatever I am doing right now. It's hard, but, hey, who said battles are no-sweat? It's just a matter of having faith, clinging on, trusting God, and fighting a good fight. Guards up! Never let it down! Not a single moment! Not a single chance!

It's a tough battle... but I'm still fighting with my Lord!

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Hm. I want to sketch, read, and write again... even just these three things that I used to do. I miss it so much.