doodles and babbles

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Yey! Ang saya talaga ng camp namin. Enjoy na, nakaka-bless pa. So guys, if you wanna read my testimony about it, go ahead and read. But warn yah, medyo mahaba-haba po. Don't worry, may pix naman na magpapa-aliw sa inyo ng onti... :)

Hay naku... I can't say anything. I just feel... so grateful and sothankful because of all the blessings and all the love that I havepersonally received from the Lord. It's a total tsunami of God'sgoodness, you know. I'm so overwhelmed and I could not help but totake a moment, stop for a while, take a deep breath and let a teardrop trickle down... no amount of thanks could be muttered inexchange of God's work in my life. And probably, with my co-youthslives too.

Itong camp nato ang pinakamemorable sa akin. Dahil first time kongmaglead ng group dito. And it was very stressful too. Bago pa langmagcamp kabado na ako. Wala kasi akong time to meet my groupmates. Iwas very busy during the days before the camp. Finals kasi namin,tapos pumunta pa ako ng singapore. (Thanks sa provision ni Lord!) SiMaui, ang aking assitant, ang nag-asikaso lahat. The banner, yungmeals for the entire camp, yung assignment ng bawat isang member, siyang mag-isa ang nagprepare lahat. That was why when I arrived,everything was settled na. (Thanks again, Mau. You were such ablessing.)

Eto po si Maui. Ang assitant kong mabait at makulet.

Marami akong naexperience sa camp na ito. Not only the sweet feeling in God's presence, but also the stressful and tiring experiencesthat surely stretched my patience and exercised my faith. God usedthis experiences to teach me one great thing--that is, not to bejust a leader, but to be a servant-leader.

During this camp, I felt very incapable as a leader. You see, I am areserved person especially among newly acquainted people. I onlyexpress my thoughts (extensively) through writing because I get mythoughts all jumbled up when speaking. With my little voice, it waslike impossible to influence other people. I felt small and inferiorwith my witty groupmates. But God showed me that leadership doesn'tdepend on how well you speak, how loud your voice is or how charmingyou are. Leadership depends on a person's heart to serve and be aservant to other people. Humility is one great factor in being aleader. During the times when I felt so disappointed because of myincapablity of influencing and getting the attention of my group,God gave Moses from the old testament as an example. He was such ameek man and a poor speaker too. Yet he was able to lead thousandsof thousands of people out of Egypt. So that gave me the courage tocontinue the race, knowing that it is God who will give me thestrength to lead and serve my group. God made my weakness as mystreangth. Leadership is servanthood. Leadership is not speaking outloud, but fervently doing actions. Leadership does not invovlepride, but it involves humility. Leadership is not lifting ourheads, but bowing it low. Leadership does not come from ourselves,but from God. After learning that lesson, I focused on my job to meet my members' needs. Ok lang kung may mas magaling sa akin magsalita. At least,natutulungan nila akong irelay ang mga gusto kong sabihin sa group.Ok lang kung hindi ko alam gawin ang lahat (especially sapagluluto). Because others had their chance to contribute theirgifts for the group. Ok lang na mapagod, basta para sa group ko,especially, para kay Lord. :)

Galatians Group! Group namin!

Banner namin!

God stood by my side and held my hand all this time. He never left me. He love me so much that I could no longer count the instancesthat he had helped me. Kung hindi dahil sa Kanya, wala talaga akongmagagawa. The reason why I was able to lead my group is because ofHim. Alone. 100%. All I can do is to give back all the praises angglory to Him and offer everything I do for Him.

Pagod na ba kayo sa pagbabasa. Sorry ha. But I hope you also learnedsomething from my experience. :) Praise God!

***PS: I thank God for Lovely and Angel dahil sila ang matsagangnagluto for the entire duration ng camp. Salamat sa inyo. Kunghindi, namuti mata ng mga Galatians dahil sa gutom. :) Salamat dinsa mga naging ka-group ko dahil hindi kayo naging pasaway. You were so patient sa paghihintay ng ating food. At salamat rin sa mga taona nag-encourage sa akin: ate ca, ate cet and ate dianne. You dried my tears away. (hehe. andrama.)

Lovely

Angel

Sige po, yun lang naman. Ikli no? Pasensya na ha, wala akong masabieh. (hehehe...)Praise God! God bless you!

Mount Zion Church of the Firstborn Youth Aflame
Summer Camp 2005

11:36 AM
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hm... it's summer. I can feel the scorching heat of the sun burning my skin...

but it won't match the fire that burns within my heart. A fire for the Lord. A fire to serve Him. A fire to worship Him. A fire to to give may best for Him. Thank God for the revival that He sent during our camping. It was such a memorable experience... His presence was so strong and tremendous amount of tears had been poured out for Him. I just hope that the flame in our hearts will forever burn...

How I wish the whole world would also experience what we had experienced during our camp... madalas kong iniisip na sana dumating na si Lord. Nakakapagod ng tumira sa mundo natin. So corrupt... so evil... But a part of me says na wag muna sana dumating si Lord. Marami pa akong dapat ifulfill sa mga commandments Niya. Specially the Great Commission. I haven't shared the gospel to a single soul yet. Siyempre pag-punta ko sa heaven ayoko naman sa outer courts lang ako. Gusto ko malapit ako kay Jesus. :)

Kaylan nga kaya dadating si Lord? Sana buhay pa ako pag nangyari yun. Definitely maabutan ng generation natin yun. Pero sana nabubuhay pa rin ako. But that also means experiencing all the hardships and persecution of the upcoming tribulation... yikes. But by God's grace, by His protection, I will not be moved.

Alright, just wanna share my thoughts.
God bless you all! :)

11:10 AM
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