Thursday, September 30, 2004
okay... 20 minutes bago ako mag 1-hour dito sa internet. kailangan one hour lang dahil paubos na money ko. pero magpo-post muna ako bago umwi...
... teka wala akong maisip na maipopost...
hay naku... hirap naman pag walang maipost. dito kami ngayon sa taas ng ci. on my left is glad and orange. nagtitingin sila ng ghostly sites. ewan ko ba sa mga to! tinatakot ang sarili. they're listening to sound clips ng mga ghosts. yung iba ang creepy talaga, yung iba static lang. ewan ko... totoo kaya yung mga yun? o baka naman nirerecord lang nila talaga. buti nalang maraming tao dito sa ci... nakakatakot yung sound clips talaga...
sa right ko naman si ali at si laura. busy sa friendster. si veron andito rin, somewhere behind us...
hayun... ang dami na palang napost ng mga classmates ko. sana may maipost din ako na something worth reading.
(hay naku! si orange binabasa na itinatype ko! hmph!)
ano pa ba... sige na nga, saka nalang ulit. bubuh-bye muna ako.
iisip pa ko ng maissulat.
(yan...ten minutes nalang. log-out nako...)
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Friday, September 17, 2004
SEQUEL NG "FUNNY WEIRD JEEP EXPERIENCES"...
hay naku... wala paring tatalo sa mga nararanasan namin ni gladys about jeepnies. kaya michael, ewan ko nalang kung maisipan mo pang sumakay ulit ng jeep! di-hamak na mas kakatuwa ang mga nararanasan namin...
try nyong maghintay ng jeep for 1 HOUR ng naka-HEELS!!! hehehe!! :) wala kaming pang-taxi so no choice but to wait. we just cling to the hope na someday, somehow, may darating rin na jeep... hindi forever na punuan ang mga jeep... yun nalang iniisip namin.
anyways, hinid tungkol sa paghihintay ng jeep ang naranasan namin ni glad. sooner or later, tiyak mababasa rin niyo ang story na to sa blog ni glad.
well, here it goes...
pauwi na kami ni glad nitong friday. around 12 na ata nun. after mag internet, kumain muna kami sa jollibee kasi mejo gutom na gutom na ko. hayun... pagkatapos kumain, thank God at nakasakay naman kami kaagad (kasi maaga pa). Hindi naman punuan ang jeep so naka-upo kami ng matiwasay.
at first, tahimik lang kami ni glad sa biyahe. were pre-occupied with our own thoughts so walang kuwentuhan. then suddenly, biglang may umakyat na "punas boy." *(FYI: punas boys are those kids that ride the jeepney to wipe all the passengers shoes and then they would ask for money. minsan may nagbibigay pero madalas wala.)* He started wiping our shoes then he opened his palm as he make his way towards the "estribo" *(yung exitan ng jeep.)* i'm not sure kung may nagbigay sa kanya or wala.
anyways, nung pagkababa niya, nagkatinginan kami ni glad. then i told her: "Naranasan na kaya yan ni michael?"
she laughed and said: "Oo nga no!"
tapos hagikgikan pa kami as we try to imagine michael's expression when he encounter these things. knowing his short temper and the way he gets irritated, sobrang naiimagine ko talaga kung pano reaction niya. (sorry michael ha... hihihi!)
thus started our conversation. at sa pag-uusap namin ni glad, nabanggit niya na nasi-CR na daw sha. sabi ko: "Go!"
then she said: "sige, nga-nga ka!"
then we go giggling agen. (can you imagine it? we can be so quiet in our way home but we can be so noisy too! ewan ko kung naririnig ng mga ibang passengers yung mga pinag-uusapan namin...)
tapos sabi ko: "Yan o, may halamanan. para ka sandali."
then biglang may naalala si glad na experience niya sa past. basta, nung bata daw sha pag sinasama daw sha sa pamamalengke in the morning, she used to pee in between vehicles kasi bata pa nga siya so she she can't control it that much pa. lahat naman ng bata diba? (sorry glad binkuking kita!)
then i went: "Yuck! para kang pusa. hindi ka man lang sa halaman nag tago."
then suddenly, (this is it...) yung katabi kung ale humarap sa amin then she said: "Ay, may naalala ako sa pinagkukuwentuhan ninyo."
our smile froze as our brows went frowning a bit. hindi ako makatingin kay glad dahil hindi ko alam kung ano magiging reaction ko. The lady beside me told her story about her son when he was young (i can't remember the characters of her story) peeing in between cars din. may isang batang babae yata na madalas siyang makitang ginagawa yun! (yucky talga!) and then as the years went by, they end up marrying each other! (hay naku... can't remember the details. basta yun ang pagkakaintindi ko! hintayin niyo nalang post ni glad kasi siya ang mas nagrereact sa kwento ng ale.)
hayun, edi mejo nagreact naman kami ni glad para naman hindi mapahiya yung ale. During the rest of our way, we just kept controlling our giggles. sobra... sa totoo lang, nahihiya ako sa pinagkukuwentuhan namin ni glad, but at the same time, nahihiya rin ako para dun sa ale. ang tapang niya. hindi niya napigilang i-share ang story niya. well... bigla kong naisip, pano kaya kung kay michael nangyari to? ano kaya sasabihin niya sa ale...?
hehehe! o hayan! sino pang may ibang kakatuwang experiences sa jeep? i-post niyo na! :D
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SOMETHING TO PONDER...
... i have just read lele's latest post in her blog. i can't put my comment on the tagboard 'cause the space won't be enough. i want to share my feelings towards that story.
it's true. it's already finished. everything has been signed by the blood of Jesus Christ.
but His unconceivable act of love for us a couple of millenium ago seemed to be just a piece of literary work in the Bible today.
when we read about it in emails, we feel touched.
we feel guilty, ashamed and unworthy of His mercy.
we say sorry for the things that we have done.
but after a couple of days, or even hours, the words we have read have already flew out of the window.
why do we easily forget it? why is it everytime we think or read about Him, we always feel ashamed of our selves? it make me think... i wish, one day, i would come to Him without tears in my eyes or frown in my face. i wish i could come to Him with my head up high and with a beaming smile, saying: "Hello, God. I came today to praise You and worship You." alam niyo yun? yung parang, magpe-pray ka sa Kanya because He is so majestic and worthy of all praise... not because he have to wash our sins...
yes, He will always be merciful to us. He is always ready to forgive us when we commit mistakes. but just want to remind you... this won't be forever. i'm not scaring you or something, but i'm telling the truth. sometimes, i have a hard time telling this to people because i'm afraid they would reject me and would not believe. but i always hear God's words in my heart: "When people reject you, always remember that they first rejected me." it's in the Bible but I can't remember the exact verse. it's like in the matthew. so hindi talaga ako ang nire-reject nila, but God Himself!
for now, his forgiveness will always be open for us. pero pano pag dumating na ulit si Lord? naniniwala ba kayo dun? na dadating ulit siya at malapit na? i will understand if you won't believe it, pero sobrang maawa ako sa inyo kung hindi kayo maniniwala. pero wala naman akong magagawa dun...
nyweis, pag dumating na yun, kailangan ready tayo. we have to have a clean and pure heart worthy to present it to God. minsan naiisip natin, "bata pa ko. marami pang panahon para manghingi ng tawad kay Lord at magbagong buhay. i'll just live my life muna the way i like it!" e pano pag hanggang bukas nalang pala ang buhay natin dito sa mundo? remember, God will come without us knowing it. like a thief in the night, and He will take those who is His.
at pano kapag bigla tayong binawian ng buhay tomorrow? The Lord is capable of taking away our lives because you're not living it the way He planned it be. But He is always gracious and merciful to us. He always hope that one day, we would come back to Him and realize our mistakes. pero hindi laging ganun... isipin nalang natin yung mga accidents araw-araw at yung mga namamatay dahil sa simpleng rason lang... are they ready to face their judgement in front of God?
tayo kaya, ready na ba tayo? it's either heaven or hell. purgatory... i'm not sure. no offense ha... but i haven't read the word in the Bible yet.
we don't want to take chances, do we? we want to be sure of our destination in after life right? heaven is not only for saints. God created heaven for us! pero pag hindi tayo karapatdapat na mapunta doon... hindi tayo mapupunta doon. usually, when somebody passed away, we comfort those who are left behind and we say, "don't worry, kasama na niya si Lord." are you sure? i know it's comforting but... we're not that sure, are we?
isa lang naman ang makakapag bigay satin ng assurance of salvation. it's all in the Bible. first, we must turn back to God and ask for forgiveness. when we ask forgiveness, kailangan, hindi na natin gagawin yung sin na yun. if our repentance is sincere, He will always be just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 john 1:9) then we must accept Jesus in our hearts and let Him lead our life. yun lang... after that, sure na pupunta talga tayo sa heaven. :)
usually ang common conotation natin, our good works will bring us salvation. kaya hirap na hirap tayo. in truth, hindi talga. yes, mas lalong nakaka-guilty yun diba? wala na tayong dapat gawin kasi ginawa na ni Jesus ang lahat sa cross. para namang ang daya sa part ni Lord. unfair right? pero ganon tayo ka mahal ni Jesus. We don't have to strive hard to gain the key to heaven. sabi sa bible: "it is by grace you have been saved through faith... not by works so no once can boast." but don't worry, yung good works natin, macre-credit din yun pag dating natin sa heaven. kailangan pa rin natin gumawa ng good works dahil yung good works na yun ang magrereflect ng love and goodness ni God para sa mga tao. rewards ang makukuha natin. but good works is not the key to heaven. Jesus is the key to heaven. good works are the key to the rewards in heaven. gets niyo ba?
advice ko lang... (and this really works for me) every day, read one chapter ng proverbs. maraming promises si Lord dun na makakatulong satin everyday. mula sa simpleng problema hanggang sa pinaka complicated, makakatulong yung words ni God dun. it's very encouraging. bukod sa pagpe-pray every night, kailangan din nating hayaang mag-speak satin si Lord diba? hindi yung tayo lang ang parating nagkukuwento sa kanya. Let Him tell His story through His word. When we desire to know Him, he will give us wisdom to understand his profound words.
sorry ha... medyo taliwas ba ang sinulat ko sa iniisip niyo? i just want to express my thoughts that's all. i hope you won't get mad at me.
If our road is misty, there will always be a little light that keeps on glowing. sometimes, we don't notice it because we get scared of the thick mist around us. but we must follow that light because that will lead us out of the mist. and that light is Jesus.
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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
CONFESSIONS of a restless jumping bean...
i should be doing something... i should be doing something! bakit ganon? alam kong walang gagawin tomorrow (september 16, 2004, thursday), pero alam kong next week medyo marami na tayong gagawin. but my mind and body are screaming REST! LEISURE! while my superego keeps on whispering "you have work to do... you still have lots of work to do... you should be doing something right now..."
oh my... have i already acquired a disorder? i hope not.
do you feel the same way? sometimes, i really do want to take a rest, by my mind just kept on thinking and fuzzing over the upcoming reports and quizzes. it has its own "mind" (huh?) i just can't get rid of those reports and quizzes.
but you know, --this is really weird-- sometimes i like the feeling of finishing a report in the middle of the night to be submitted the next day. or start, as in start, studying one hour before the quiz. sometimes, i like the feeling of being stressed then finishing the stuff that caused my stress. get it? and i really savor the feeling of "haay salamat!" when every stress and sleepless nights pay off with a nice satisfactory grade or performance. diba...? nakakarelate kayo diba? sarap ng feeling nun diba? pag mataas ang grade na nakuha mo sa pinagpuyatan mong report or kaya pag sigurado ang mga sagot mo sa quiz na pinaghandaan mo one hour ago lang... sana nga ganun palagi. unfortunately, there are times when your heardships don't pay off at all...
iyak ka nalang.
ganun talaga.
bawi nalang sa susunod.
kung may susunod pa.
hay classmates... this is college life. i still can't picture myself wearing that black cloak and cap and transferring that colored tassle to the other side of my head. graduation... next year na yun. ano kaya isusuot kong dress? hehe...
lam niyo, sa totoo lang... di ko pa alam kung ano nga ba ang gagawin ko pagka-graduate ko. definitely not med. hindi ko kaya yun. di rin kaya ng bulsa namin yun. i don't like being a guidance counselor. kahit nung highschool pa, ayoko na nun. i don't wan't to teach. because i lack the ability to transfer learning to other people. forensic psych sana... kayalang parang next to impossible na ata yun. kelangan mo munang mag-chem ng sandamakmak at mag law rin. mananatiling pangarap nalamang yun. industrial psych... puwede na rin, pero wala talaga dun ang heart ko. baka ma-bore lang ako agad. clinical psych mejo gusto ko pa, kayalang ang daming research!!! ayoko na nun... gusto ko sana sa mga special kids pag nag clinical psych, pero ayoko na ng research.
o... ano pa ba? may naiisip pa ba kayo? kung mag-asawa nalang kaya ako...? nyak-nyak-nyak!!! JOKE LANG!!! :p hindi pa dumadating ang guy na makakasama ko pang-habang buhay. kung nandiyan na siya, hindi pa siya pinapakilala ni Lord sa kin. In His time, makikilala ko rin siya. wait lang ako...
kaya ngayon, sobrang pinagpe-pray ko ang magiging work ko after graduation. hindi ko talaga kasi alam. iniisip ko nga... kung BS-IT nalang sana ang inapplyan ko noon, siguro mas-magiging clear yung future work ko for me. mahilig akong mangalikot ng computer, and i like arts to. kung puwede nga, gusto ko magwork sa PIXAR. hehe... office mates kami ni Orange. pero naisip ko rin, hindi naman hahayaan ni Lord na makapasa ako sa psych kung hindi Niya plano na mag-psych ako. so definitely, may pinaplano sa akin si Lord. Hindi pa nga lang Niya nirereveal sa kin yun. i pray that He would reveal it very soon 'cause i'm starting to fret about my future. but i will trust in Him while i wait for His answer. my future is in His hands...
ayan. may naisulat rin ako ulit. sorry ha, medyo mahaba. i will understand if you won't reach this far. pero maganda sana kung nabasa niyo ng buo. kasi ako, pinagchachagaan kong basahin yung mga posts nyo! (hehe! manumbat daw ba?)
salamat sa walang sawang pagtangkilik sa aking mga pinoposts. ganun din ang walang sawa kong pagtangkilik sa inyong mga isunusulat na saloobin.
hanggang sa muling pagblo-blog...
*bow*
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Monday, September 13, 2004
hay... what's happening to me? i ran out of ideas to write here on my blog. sorry po kung yun at yun nalang ang nababasa niyo dito.
bigyan niyo naman ako ng idea kung ano ang isusulat ko sa susunod.
wala na talaga ako maisip. wala naman kasi kakaibang nangyayari sa buhay ko this days. tahimik at simple ang aking buhay... masaya na ako sa pagkain ng sapat, at pagtulog ng sapat, manuod ng tv ng sapat, at paglaro sa computer ng sapat, at siyempre, sa pagiging involve sa church ministries ng sapat... hayun lang...
sige, magkukuwento ako ng buhay ko minsan. kahit simple... i feel obliged to write something here on my blog. i don't know why...
see yah.
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